Deviation Correction

Recall the nights of paralysis, inability to breathe. Recall chasing angles, pillows, holding your nose open to fall asleep. Recall the sound of breathing that drives you up the wall. People calling your nose swollen. Parents not getting it and telling you to do breath work. Crying when the doc finally told you it is a terrible deviation. These illiterate assholes. So much rage, all from a nose.

Well, tomorrow it gets corrected. You will breathe better. I am hoping that this is a milestone. I know that it is because it has been so long overdue. It is symbolic of a new life, one that is not afraid of doing better. It is taking the necessary step to live healthily. You know it is the overcoming of a mental block, because this is a very normal and routine surgery. Why else would you have kept it off so long.

You may have held on to the anger against your parents, but forgive them now. I forgive them for neglecting my nose. They did not know any better and/or were preoccupied with their own lives. This does not mean you have to wait. You can move on with yourself and you are not a bad person for this.

I hope you feel much better. You will feel better, there is no doubt that getting a centimetre of nose cleared will feel better. I imagine it to clear your sinuses and take way this persistent headache of yours.

Not only that, after a month and a half you can travel. I am very happy about that as well.

I am also of the idea that something meaningful will come up in this time for you to pursue.

It will be easy, fulfilling and clear.

Now let all the issues go away. If you cannot choose between opening the bag or letting it go, keep it down for a moment. Relax. Take a pause. Your body needs you now. Focus on yourself. Here and now.