There must be hunger

‘nothing can change’

when you start whirling, there comes a point where you go on without effort. here you must cease though, as if you think you will lose balance. you see that you will only get in your own way.

The dreams that I have know no surrender.

The parting of the red sea is an allegory for the parting of the mind.

See through smoke, directly the goal.

Learning and hope are what brooding and anxiety try to be

dream

it is easier to find a heart that has given up and become afraid of happiness

but it is easier to understand the one that yearns for it

Fuckit and forget

Born with a silver spoon, but I want gold.

I want beauty in my world but I won’t be blinded by it anymore.

I learned

That I feel guilt

How can I move on with life

With those I have hurt

How can I be happy

When I have made sad

This is what I learned I feel

About myself

That time I did not speak because I wanted to stay away

This time I can not speak because words are not enough

Sometimes you gotta cross the road with your eyes closed.

A favourite day.

Why did the two spiritual gurus not need a visa?

Because they were do mystic travellers.

Getting? Domestic, do (2)????

I don’t do hookups, I speedrun relationships.

im not a celebrity im a personality

Book name: ?>.

I am excited to see how I die.

Now we fight aversion.

the subconcious is

like tht friend who is driving and takes you through the longest darkest and shadiest route but eventually gets you where you wanna be

play where two friends go for therapy and learn to coexist god and satan

tall moderately handsome and exceedingly human

famous but they don’t know it yet

A smoker? Pre-enlightenment or post?

The greatest thing we can do in our sorrow is reminding ourselves of our own strength.

Relatively sorted.

Deus ex machina.

We are going for therapy.

Why what has happened?

Enough.

Redefine greatness.

Sinners go blind.

I am a perfect match surrounded by dynamite.

Told a crushee that I did not pursue my crush because she was out of my league. You may think that is self-deprecating, but I am playing a different game into which she does not fit.

Existential Genius.

Competing with God.

In terms of complexity, compare movies to puzzles

Level of one complexity- Interstellar- this is like a a puzzle with a difficult picture, but you have frame of reference, you have some idea, as it can be a picture you have seen.

But old guy is like a puzzle with an abstract painting so it cannot be guessed, there is lack of meaning, but at the end it comes together and makes a painting.

I have been sent by the ones above to deal with you.

But what about all this stuff?

What about all this stuff?

(Others give reactions, ends with me to myself and myself to me.)

Friends are just strangers I like to smile at.

I did this in a Psychology Labs class. So much fun, so much light.

Extra Ordinary

Heh, or Extra. Ordinary. Wordplay is fun. Reminds me of Apple’s Light. Speed.

Everyone is a genius, I hope they are lucky to realise this.

My journey back home began the day I left it. For I left it with intention to return, only the intention was forgotten. Thus, I will never be lost, for I travel in circles.

Pain means I am sober.

Life is a highway… highway to hell.

These sheets are ugly.

Well, I am sure there is something beautiful about them.

Yes, there probably is, but I cannot see it.

Ah, then that’s a different problem altogether.

Romantically hunted emotionally stunted.

I am the master of depression, anxiety and lethargy.

You are just like your father- well, what are my options?

Ye pyaar ka sadma hai.

Kanye West, patron saint of the mentally ill.

The trick seems to be being old in youth and youthful in old age.

Rebirth sounds almost like a threat right now.

The day I figure out long hair AND mental health it’s over for you bitches.

If God asked me what I would like maybe I’d ask him what he wants.

Bro got his circadian rhythm on shuffle.

The art of spiralling upwards is easy if you stand on your head.

Of all the things that could not be it, this is not it the most.

NEED BETTER WORDS UGH!

If God has left me, I am glad. He has better things to do, and I can take care of myself. I do not need him all the time like a child who will burn down the house without a parent. I can take care of myself, let him deal with bigger problems, while I, hopefully, can go beyond myself and help him out.

Patience (limited edition)

Heh, use this line somewhere. Maybe a clothing line under a brand which has your name. Karan Baijal’s Patience (limited edition). Cool colours, teal and the sea.

Have I?
Has he?

Have you?

No clue

‘Act as if ye had faith’

Does Ye have faith?

Turns to Kanye, he nods

Acts

As a child he stood bleeding

Laughing

How could God bleed?

Thus this is no injury

But a scar he will later cherish

and call cute

So his devil is masculine, for it is his former masculine attitude which entices him back into the world.- Jung.

11/11/23 Deleted the account.

This is my current Instagram profile. I contemplate deleting my account, I find no reason to have it, although I wonder if this is aversion. It sounds like it. Let me not do anything. My plan for my Instagram account was to record this year and make it public once I turn 22. Should I still keep at it, I do not know. Well, it is still private, so no harm in that. Let the account stay too, it poses no threat that cannot be avoided with awareness.

This part of the world I had lost

This part of the world I reclaim

This part of the world I protect

I feared the gym. I did 20 sessions. I do not fear the gym. It is not for me.