Boredom

I feel bored. I find myself looking around for something to do. I can’t imagine how my parents, especially Dad, may be feeling. Just nothing to do, and it is only day one. Well, on the bright side, Instagram or Youtube is no longer nourishing my appetite.

My wishes come true. Just as I found myself letting go of fast food on its own, I let go of Instagram and Youtube too. There is no reason to resist something, manifestations come true.

I seek porn. Ugh.

This logic, that bad things fall away on their own, does it apply to drugs and porn?

Some people eat fast food for life. How can I be certain my things will fall away? What separates people whose vices fall away naturally and those who are stuck forever?

The tides of life? Do they wash it all away?

Cravings are strong, let me complete my tasks. Wish to buy shoes today. I was to go for a face clean up. I will look into that. Buy dry fruit too. Need to shower.

I guess the best way to use boredom is to prepare ourselves for opportunities to come. I sit with my boredom. I choose to be bored. It is okay.

If you wish to understand, keep in mind that you have gone from being surrounded by family and friends to being alone all of a sudden. Thus, your mind requires time to adjust. Spend this day as you would like to spend the days to come. Be with yourself.

Wonderful things do come from boredom.