I fear I screwed up my future. Oh no. I do not know what I can do with this degree. I feel I let down the ambition in me, I hope my doors are open. It feels so final when a door closes. I am scared. Strange, there has never been fear for my future. Only when I know I could have done better. What is better?

Is it not you who said education can be attained regardless of admission. Perhaps it is the structure of a degree. Oh well, what can be done? Focus on the task at hand, study well, get good grades. They are always useful.