10/5/24

Okay

Felt like dropping

Great conflict

Hated mother for not outright agreeing. Then hated her for not disagreeing. Spoke, found perhaps Durga.

Brother

How long to keep this pain. What is this. You want to get out without going fully in.

She stood you up

Even now she does not call back.

SHE DOESN’T CARE. CHILL.

Yet how will the mind accept it is hurt. The heart is hurt. It is okay, I look for expression.

This morning, I felt it better to be hurt and create art than to chase resolution like a dog.
I run run run.

Ew.

Man.