I had an off day. I had to run. I am remembering what it means to do what I say. I said I would run, so I did. I am glad I did.

As I ran an idea came to me for a project. So hard these years have been, that I stayed away from the idea. I did not indulge in it. I had to run. I came back, tried writing it down now. It is gone. I feel sad? No, I feel unattached. What will happen, will happen effortlessly. The whole point of this seems to remind me that great things are within.

Would I not give up if I had everything as I once did? Of course I would. I don’t want anything. For many years I believed this to be a problem. The world told me it is a problem. The problem was addiction. Not a lack of want. To not want anything was the greatest thing I had. I still do.

I saw a photo of Kendrick Lamar smiling. It made me happy.