I was watching a video about synchronicity. About an hour ago I think, I imagined I heard my mother crying and coming into my room. She did come, but did not cry. It was a minor thing. She was concerned that I had left the table when my parents were talking. I admit, I was getting out of a potentially uncomfortable situation for myself, but it wasn’t angry avoidance. Just ‘Oh, my dinner is done and I have no reason to remain so I can leave.’

My brother seemed upset and I asked why. He said the usual triggers. I let him be. Later on, I needed my nose drops. I thought I would ask him, maybe it would be a good distraction.

We came into the room, passing my mother. She asked him why he is not speaking to her. I thought she meant me, but she didn’t. My brother responded that he has decided that it is best to speak little to my mother, because she is always negative. This made me panic, a confrontation. I breathed and remained calm. I told my brother he could put the drop later, he snapped a little saying he came here for me. Fair, and it kept me from avoidance. He put it and left.

I continued watching my video. It started to speak of warning synchronicities, where subtle shifts can warn you of danger, they seem minor. Later my mother did come, she expressed her grief and cried. I listened, actively this time. It yielded great results.
The strategy of active listening and breathing is good for conflict.

I also recognise that what I was avoiding became a self-fulfilling prophecy. It seems we try to do good when we fear bad. I tried to do good to distract my brother out of a fear of sadness. It led pain to me. It is a great irony.

My door just opened, I jolted.